My time in the Chi for law school pt xiii

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

How Many Nails? Ah, the blog...haven't had much to say lately...but there's something in the air.... So today it was about 75 deg, not humid and there was not a cloud in the sky, total Colorado weather. Just another reaffirmation of the powermove. There's always been little signs foreshadowing the return (I still have a 303 number) but there have been other things since to seal the deal. The powermove has become more lucid lately. After a break in B.A., the move away was almost all but decided. I've always said that would stay if there was a killer job opportunity, but I think my true intentions permeated while I was going through the interview process. So much of the legal profession depends on manipulating the situation in your favor. Not following baseball (but hellz yeah Rockies!) and cheering for a team in the AFC that runs a West Coast Offense doesn't bode well for turning things in your favor in an inherently Xenophobic profession (ah, the greatness of our Federalist system). Even the first words the president of the Illinois State Bar Association said to me were, "you're not from around here, are you." If this meant outgoing, playful and dressed in colors other than drab, yeah I'm not from around here. At first I thought the fixation my displacement was a result of some right of passage I've been failing. But after the stint in B.A. I realized it was more of the fact that there's nothing here that fundamentally defines me. I found a calm in B.A.--I could actually sleep. I believe in the philosophy that you should never close doors, as you never know what defines you until you give it a chance. However, it's equally important to realize that certain things will never define you. In this process, it's only natural to redefine yourself every once in awhile, but you should only do so by eliminating flaws, not giving up qualities that fundamentally define you. Unfortunately, the redefinition the past few years has been more of the latter, and not the former. So there was a point to this, oh yeah, how many nails does it take to close a coffin? Keeping a 303 number; cheering for an AFC team; preferring a snowboard to a life jacket; having a wardrobe that consists of more than white, grey, black, and navy ... hmm, it may only take the first one for a Xenophobic profession....